Boyfriends may come and go, girlfriends stay forever :)

We're not just another girl-gang. Weve been together since-what? forever?
Anyway, i just love you all. Thanks for staying with me for these past 14 years ;)

What future holds

So, they were right. Senior year is not that easy and this year you need to be much more mature and be able to choose your next path.

i hate choosing, why cant i have all that i want? but that's the point of growing up, isnt it? to be able to choose between life's choices. (and i hate growing up, i'd love to be forever 17, young, careless and lively)

Anyway, i'm not gonna whine again, i'm just gonna talk about choosing my next educational path. College.

People always say to follow my heart my passion, and dont take majors that i dont like or just bcos my parents want me to. But, hello? what about being realistic? Seenaknya mengikuti kata hati dan passion mungkin segombal bicara cinta-cintaan sinetron, cinta buta dan gapeduli hal lainnya, dalam kata lain tolol. emangnya bisa bertahan cuma dengan cinta? emangnya mau makan cinta doang pas gede ntar? Sama seperti passion. Mungkin memang ada orang-orang yang mengikuti passionnya dan sukses, dan tentu saja bisa makan dari penghasilannya tersebut. Tapi mayoritas orang mencoba realistis, dan kembali menjadi kapitalis yang hanya memikirkan bagaimana bisa hidup nyaman tanpa kekurangan.

Kalau mau ikutin apa yang sebenernya saya mau, saya bakal milih Jurnalistik atau sastra atau hukum internasional, atau yang paling aneh mungkin bakal jadi artis (obsesi terkenal). I love to write and tell stories, tapi saya bukan (belum) jadi seperti Sitta Karina ataupun Raditya Dika yang jago merangkai kata kata jadi suatu karya yang menarik dan berkesan.But one thing, i know that writing and telling stories are one of my passions. Yang lainnya adalah saya mau jadi orang yang bisa merubah hidup orang banyak, seperti presiden atau mungkin sekedar volunteer PBB. Yang jelas, saya ngga mau berakhir jadi mbak-mbak kantoran yang masuk pagi pulang sore dan kerja di depan komputer terus menerus. Saya mau punya karir yang seru.

Tapi punya karir yang seru ngga segampang itu, kan? Kembali lagi ke pertanyaan "Nanti mau makan apa kalo gede?" dan pernyataan yang selalu ada diberikan semua orangtua pada anaknya ttg memilih jurusan "Cari yang gampang buat nyari kerjanya.."

Menjadi idealis berarti ngga bisa realistis, itu kesimpulan saya sejauh ini.

Saya kenal beberapa orang yang rela melepaskan impiannya demi punya prospek kerja yang cerah. Teman saya, dia sebenarnya ingin mengambil teknik penerbangan, namun karena prospek kerja di indonesia di bidang tsb ngga cerah, dia lalu mengambil jurusan yang sama dengan ayahnya dulu.

Saya masih bingung dengan pilihan yang harus saya ambil sebentar lagi.

Happy fasting, cheerio!
bises,
adelia

Alter Ego, Drama Queen, and Me.

An alter ego (Latin, "the other I") is a second self, a second personality or persona within a person. It was coined in the early nineteenth century when schizophrenia was first described by early psychologists.[1] A person with an alter ego is said to lead a double life.

Okay, not that serious. But dont you sometimes think that you have two parts, two (or more) personalities within you? I do. The first Adelia is the most positive girl in the world who always smiles and laughs and sings and feels good. The second one is the melodramatic Adelia. Its like umm, weird? Yeah call me a weirdo, because i am. When i'm having the melodramatic moments, seriously, you dont wanna know or get near me. I'll whine and complain and else. Wanna see a drama queen? You gotta see me. And when i'm done with that phase, i laugh and regret what ive done before. (okay my grammar sucks.)

That's what makes me suddenly feel guilty about one of my friends. Me and the other kids agree that she's soooo drama and hyperbolic. She tells us about her never ending love and life stories and it annoys us sooo damn much, especially me. But few days ago i had this thought, what if i'm just like this girl, what if i annoy my friends so much, just like her? I have no right to blame and hate her if i'm just the same kind of girl, right?

I called my fairly godmother, Ajay, immediately and told her what was on my mind. And like the others, she said "No, Adelia, stay calm, Youre way better than her." But somehow i just couldnt accept it just like that, i just feel guilty until now. What if the kind of girl that i hate is just her alter ego, just like me when having bad moments? Or maybe its just her? I have no idea.

Gosh, i thought i'll stop having these kind of things in my mind when i'm back home. I thought my senior year would be just all about studying. But i guess my teenage years are not over yet, or maybe it's just me? no idea.

Thats all for now,
Gros Bisous,
and i know my grammar sucks.
xoxoxo
Adelia

Update!

Hey dudes and dudettes!
Its been a super long time since my last post. Not that i dont wanna write anything, its just that the internet connection here is soo slow and annoying it makes me lazy to type, and i cant stand tying long paragraphs from my cell.

So my life has just begun (again) in the same old place but different surroundings. Ive started my 4th year of highschool back in SMA 8. Things are pretty good in school, i have some friends, my class is a blast, i love my fellow returnees, the lessons are still as crazy as always, well like ive said, its all okay. There are also some things that are pretty annoying for me, things that they call as Culture Shock. So many things are different from what we have back in France. Like how teachers mind about simple random things on their students, and the negative attitude that spreads throughout the school element, i dunno, am i just being to witty or its just the way it is in indonesia?

See, i cant share my opinions without looking like a snob who has been abroad. But yeah its all different here and there. My seniors are right, my real adventure begins not when i'm abroad but when i'm back in my natural country. Adapting will be harder here. Hope it'll be a blast too like last year.

Anywhoo. I dont think i can write as many as before. Senior year is pretty crazy, especially when you werent studying hard last year and go travelling instead lol. And i have to prepare for my SAT and TOEFL, i wanna go to Singapore Management University next year (wish me luck!) and also i have to study for UAN and SIMAK thingies because i'm scared that SMU is like too far away to reach. But i can already see myself living in spore next August :p Crossing Fingers! Last reason why i dont think i cant write like i did last year, i dont think my life has as much drama as last year. I have had enough drama for my adolescence years. Time to be an adult, i'm eighteen and its quite old (esp. im surrounded by sixteens and seventeens) I'd prefer to focus on SAT Vocabs than silly love stories like i did last year :) (But yeah, im still single and searching lol)

Okay, i gotta stop blabbering.
See ya!

YOU KNOW WHAT? THIS IS JUST TOO GOOD

oke sekarang gue ada di sebuah kota kecil namanya Bollene, antara Lyon dan Marseille. Gue dipindahin hostfam krn hostfam gue pada sibuk dan gakbisa (tapi kayaknya sih gak mau) nganetrin gue ke Valence buat ambil bis ke Paris hari sabtu pagi buta. jadinya gue cabs lbh cepet. gue ceritain lengkap ntar deh di jakarta.

perpisahan dgn tmn2 sedih bgt, nangis2 dikit, sama hostfam biasa aja. hostmum gue masih brengki ngeselin abis shitty deh ntar gue ceritain males gue ngomongin dia lg sensng2 gini haha

so skrg gue lg di Bollene di hostfamnya tmn gue namanya eva, dr islandia. and it is great! ada swimming pool, gue brng, ikutan sun bathing (gatau diri udah negro haha), ada tv lenglap dgn cable dan audio sistem, tvnya juga gede haha ada PS 3, ada Wii, internet ada, keluarganya sumpah oke abis, ada bocah lucu bgt uur 5taun. tmn gue si eva juga baik bgt. dan gak ada waktu2 shitty dan crappy kayak dulu gue brg si hostmum rese gue itu haha

anyhoo gue mau liburan lagi ya!
flight gue nyampe kam 10.10 wib di sukarno hatta tgl 13; so see you when i see you :)

Facebook status on July 1st 2009

“Adelia Putri misses that feeling of having a major crush.”

No, i dont mean that feeling of having someone as your bf or dating someone. Well, yes, but that's not what i mean. What i mean is that silly feeling when you have a crush on someone(s), how suddenly there are butterflies in your stomach and your cheeks are flushing. Yeah, being in the L thing.

I'm single now, like totally single, not dating, sms-ing, being close or whatever with any guy. And before you say anything, i tell you one thing, NO, I'm not complaining about being single nor i'm in an urgent need of a guy nor I basically need someone to fancy me. Nope. It's just i've never been really out of love, like totally empty, plain, even not having little fling or crush or lust with anybody for months. It's kinda weird, i mean i kinda miss that rush on my blood or that silly blush. I just miss that feeling. My life's kinda flat these days, because of this silly thingy? i dunno. But yeah, it's flat. No jolt, no rush, no flush or blush. Nothing's wrong, it's just flat. Well, boring.

And before you think that i'm a pschyco girl who loves being surrounded by admirers, nah you're wrong. I'm not goodlooking enough to be that kind of girl.

(And dont ask about that Paul guy i've been stalking on. That guy doesnt even know me. Do i intend to hop in front of him and introduce myself? No way. He knows that I'm that strange Asian who always gazes on him. How can i be creepier? But i miss seeing him around in school, stalking him made my schooldays more interesting. However, chances i'm never gonna see him anymore. I'm leaving Thonon next week.)

Rubbish, but yeah whatevs

1. how old are you?
eighteen

2. are you single?
well, obviously yes.

3. at what age do you think you'll get married?
26-28

4. do you think you'll marry the person you are with now?
who?

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
Adam Lambert,but wait he's gay. Okay make it Gaspard Ulliel, or Kevin Aprilio (?)

6. who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
My girlfriends since primary school

7. do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
Beach wedding

8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
Paris, Rome, and Thonon (?)

9. how many guests do you think you'll invite?
More than a thousand. I'll be famous, right? lol

10. will that include your exes?
Yes, and let them see what they have lost, letting me go (okay i sound like a psycho)

11. how many layers of cake do you want?
five would be enough

12. when do you want to get married, morning or evening?
Morning, then afternoon party!

13. name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
Endless love, Better Together, I love you til the end

14. do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife?
Fine dining, of course!

15. champagne or red wine?
no alcohol, gaboleh sama mama

16. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
days after the wedding..

17. money or household items?
MONEY

18. how many kids would you like to have?
two or three

19. will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
yes

20. whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
Disty Grahisa, entah mengapa