... I realized that not every dreams could come true.
As much as we want things, not all we want are tangible. either it's us, or the circumstances that don't let us. me? i have to let go some of my big dreams. maybe being nineteen gives me a new impression of life, reality and also acceptance of nonavailability. i have to say goodbye to that silly dream of having a cool American high school year, to the target of graduating from YPM (yes, as much as i hated it, i still want that diploma.), to the dream of Harvard Law School (or is it still possible?), to the dream of being skinny and tall (now!), to the dream of being a cool doctor like Meredith Grey, and many more.
but then again, you cant always have what you want.
i should be thankful, i got what i need. i got a great exchange year, ive fulfilled the passion of going to Paris and seeing Eiffel before my twenties (and by my effort!), ive gotten into University of Indonesia, majoring Communication (even though im not really sure what to do), my fam is in a good condition, i have good friends, i think people do like me, so, well, im happy.
But, still, a girl has her dreams. Lots of dreams. Graduating from college in less than 3 years, straight 4 GPAs, maybe a place in SMU next year?, be famous-really famous, get a show in Nat Geo or discovery, get slim and tall, and else and else.
Many things in mind. Yes, being nineteen, few months left before hitting twenty, i finally know what i want. now the thing is just how to make that happen. big job, adelia, big job. so world, here comes the not so little girl! :-)
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lundi 7 juin 2010
A little blabbering on the so called soulmates
"No matter how much someone loves you, and how much you love someone, or even how you're meant for each other, if you don't work out on your relationship, it wont last long, or even if it does, it wont stay good, it wont go well."--- my fairy godmother, Oshin, like years ago.
So, what if soul mates don't really exist?
Now lets get started on some quotes. "The idea of we can only be complete if we're with the other half is actually pathetic." Yes, i couldn't agree more. What about people who choose celibacy, like Oprah in example? Yeah we all need company in life; family, friends, love mate, and else, but not only one single person. is it possible to have soul-mates? or even if you're already found your significant other, are you a hundred percent sure that he/she is your so-called soul mate? what if then it turns out that your spouse isn't your soulmate? what if, lets say, you thought you've found your soulmate, but then you were wrong, and you found another one, the real one? what if you're wrong all over again? until when will you keep on doing this hunt for a soulmate?
My favorite couple in (TV) world don't believe in soulmates. (And yeah, idk whether the word "couple" should go on with don't or doesn't.) I am talking about Chandler Bing and Monica Geller. "I don't believe in soulmates. we met each other, we liked each other, then we fell in love. but then again, we worked on this relationship. we managed. that's what makes us together until now." That clearly doesn't sound romantic, but i think Monica's got the point. (Anw, where's that cheesy side of me? Hello?) Love is just not sufficient. Soulmate inst as simple as finding someone, its more likely "working and staying with someone". that's my opinion. Not that ive already found one and getting ready to tie the knot (doh, ive just graduated from highschool like 2 weeks ago!). My mom always says that no relationship could survive only by having love. even in marriages, love will go away in like 15-20 years. after that, all you have are, respect, tolerance, friendship -a super special one, you can call it love, but by this term i dont mean the one that makes you blush or gives you butterflies. the kind of love that lies one step higher than the usual lovey dovey thingy, if you get what i mean.
as much as BJ Habibie loves his late wife, i bet they also had to work things out sometimes. they managed to get through all the obstacles and stayed together, and in the end it's fair to call them 'soulmates".
okay. revision. Soulmates exist. But a soulmates is earned, not only as simple as found. nothing comes for free.
i still believe that God has the right one for me, and i do believe that God gives good person a good spouse. I hope i'll get a good one. really good one. Amen.
Btw, i dont know what put me on writing this things. Too many episodes of Friends, i guess?
So, what if soul mates don't really exist?
Now lets get started on some quotes. "The idea of we can only be complete if we're with the other half is actually pathetic." Yes, i couldn't agree more. What about people who choose celibacy, like Oprah in example? Yeah we all need company in life; family, friends, love mate, and else, but not only one single person. is it possible to have soul-mates? or even if you're already found your significant other, are you a hundred percent sure that he/she is your so-called soul mate? what if then it turns out that your spouse isn't your soulmate? what if, lets say, you thought you've found your soulmate, but then you were wrong, and you found another one, the real one? what if you're wrong all over again? until when will you keep on doing this hunt for a soulmate?
My favorite couple in (TV) world don't believe in soulmates. (And yeah, idk whether the word "couple" should go on with don't or doesn't.) I am talking about Chandler Bing and Monica Geller. "I don't believe in soulmates. we met each other, we liked each other, then we fell in love. but then again, we worked on this relationship. we managed. that's what makes us together until now." That clearly doesn't sound romantic, but i think Monica's got the point. (Anw, where's that cheesy side of me? Hello?) Love is just not sufficient. Soulmate inst as simple as finding someone, its more likely "working and staying with someone". that's my opinion. Not that ive already found one and getting ready to tie the knot (doh, ive just graduated from highschool like 2 weeks ago!). My mom always says that no relationship could survive only by having love. even in marriages, love will go away in like 15-20 years. after that, all you have are, respect, tolerance, friendship -a super special one, you can call it love, but by this term i dont mean the one that makes you blush or gives you butterflies. the kind of love that lies one step higher than the usual lovey dovey thingy, if you get what i mean.
as much as BJ Habibie loves his late wife, i bet they also had to work things out sometimes. they managed to get through all the obstacles and stayed together, and in the end it's fair to call them 'soulmates".
okay. revision. Soulmates exist. But a soulmates is earned, not only as simple as found. nothing comes for free.
i still believe that God has the right one for me, and i do believe that God gives good person a good spouse. I hope i'll get a good one. really good one. Amen.
Btw, i dont know what put me on writing this things. Too many episodes of Friends, i guess?
vendredi 18 septembre 2009
Time goes by...
...so slowly?
kadang kadang sih iya, especially when things dont go our way or when we're waiting for something. But most of the time, time goes by so damn fast for me. Mungkin waktu lagi dijalanin kerasa lambat, but then when i stop for a moment and look back, i'm always surprised how far i've gone and how fast time has passed me by. contohnya dulu waktu exchange year gue, kayaknya lamaaa banget nunggu hari berganti hari tapi sekarang saat gue udah balik lagi di jakarta, gue ngerasa wah, cepet banget setaun itu lewat, terlalu cepat malah.
konsekuensi kecepatan waktu ini (sok berat banget)adalah ke umur. oops i know its a sensitive problem lol. tapi ya, sekarang gue ngerasa, wow i am not young anymore. well, okay, eighteen is not that old, but when youre eighteen, your teenage years are over. people expect you to be mature (wth is maturity anyway?) and stop acting like a kid. okay gue ngga akan menjadikan postingan ini sebagai fate or age denial, tapi kalo mikirin umur dan waktu yg terus jalan, gue jadi agak terganggu aja. bukan karena sindrom wanita yang agak sensitif mengenai masalah umur, tapi lebih ke kebingungan dan sedikit penyesalan kenapa gue belom bisa berbuat banyak seperti orang-orang yang gue lihat di sekitar gue.
Coba liat Miley Cyrus atau Ashley Tisdale, umur segue dan udah terkenal ke seluruh dunia. Liat Kevin Aprilio: terkenal, jago banget main piano, dan sukses. Liat Sheila Marcia: artis, terkenal, hamil, penjara. oke ini gue salah contoh. tapi mereka punya sesuatu yang bisa bikin orang orang tertarik dengan kehidupan mereka dan mereka udah bisa dapatin apa yang mereka mau (their dreams, not only material thingies)
Sementara gue, 18 going on 19 (oh shit, 19 sounds soooo old!) masih kelas 3 SMA (fortunately bcos of great reason last year), still dont know what my life passion really is, masih terobsesi terkenal tapi ngga tau gimana, and well i dunno, tapi kalo ngebandingin sama orang lain, gue berasa.... kurang.
okay, gue ngga akan meneruskan postingan ini, bcos i know it'll be another naff post from me. anyway thanks for reading, happy lebaran, maaf lahir batin :)
je vous aime.
vous m'adorez, ne dites pas le contraire!
xoxoxo
kadang kadang sih iya, especially when things dont go our way or when we're waiting for something. But most of the time, time goes by so damn fast for me. Mungkin waktu lagi dijalanin kerasa lambat, but then when i stop for a moment and look back, i'm always surprised how far i've gone and how fast time has passed me by. contohnya dulu waktu exchange year gue, kayaknya lamaaa banget nunggu hari berganti hari tapi sekarang saat gue udah balik lagi di jakarta, gue ngerasa wah, cepet banget setaun itu lewat, terlalu cepat malah.
konsekuensi kecepatan waktu ini (sok berat banget)adalah ke umur. oops i know its a sensitive problem lol. tapi ya, sekarang gue ngerasa, wow i am not young anymore. well, okay, eighteen is not that old, but when youre eighteen, your teenage years are over. people expect you to be mature (wth is maturity anyway?) and stop acting like a kid. okay gue ngga akan menjadikan postingan ini sebagai fate or age denial, tapi kalo mikirin umur dan waktu yg terus jalan, gue jadi agak terganggu aja. bukan karena sindrom wanita yang agak sensitif mengenai masalah umur, tapi lebih ke kebingungan dan sedikit penyesalan kenapa gue belom bisa berbuat banyak seperti orang-orang yang gue lihat di sekitar gue.
Coba liat Miley Cyrus atau Ashley Tisdale, umur segue dan udah terkenal ke seluruh dunia. Liat Kevin Aprilio: terkenal, jago banget main piano, dan sukses. Liat Sheila Marcia: artis, terkenal, hamil, penjara. oke ini gue salah contoh. tapi mereka punya sesuatu yang bisa bikin orang orang tertarik dengan kehidupan mereka dan mereka udah bisa dapatin apa yang mereka mau (their dreams, not only material thingies)
Sementara gue, 18 going on 19 (oh shit, 19 sounds soooo old!) masih kelas 3 SMA (fortunately bcos of great reason last year), still dont know what my life passion really is, masih terobsesi terkenal tapi ngga tau gimana, and well i dunno, tapi kalo ngebandingin sama orang lain, gue berasa.... kurang.
okay, gue ngga akan meneruskan postingan ini, bcos i know it'll be another naff post from me. anyway thanks for reading, happy lebaran, maaf lahir batin :)
je vous aime.
vous m'adorez, ne dites pas le contraire!
xoxoxo
dimanche 30 août 2009
What future holds
So, they were right. Senior year is not that easy and this year you need to be much more mature and be able to choose your next path.
i hate choosing, why cant i have all that i want? but that's the point of growing up, isnt it? to be able to choose between life's choices. (and i hate growing up, i'd love to be forever 17, young, careless and lively)
Anyway, i'm not gonna whine again, i'm just gonna talk about choosing my next educational path. College.
People always say to follow my heart my passion, and dont take majors that i dont like or just bcos my parents want me to. But, hello? what about being realistic? Seenaknya mengikuti kata hati dan passion mungkin segombal bicara cinta-cintaan sinetron, cinta buta dan gapeduli hal lainnya, dalam kata lain tolol. emangnya bisa bertahan cuma dengan cinta? emangnya mau makan cinta doang pas gede ntar? Sama seperti passion. Mungkin memang ada orang-orang yang mengikuti passionnya dan sukses, dan tentu saja bisa makan dari penghasilannya tersebut. Tapi mayoritas orang mencoba realistis, dan kembali menjadi kapitalis yang hanya memikirkan bagaimana bisa hidup nyaman tanpa kekurangan.
Kalau mau ikutin apa yang sebenernya saya mau, saya bakal milih Jurnalistik atau sastra atau hukum internasional, atau yang paling aneh mungkin bakal jadi artis (obsesi terkenal). I love to write and tell stories, tapi saya bukan (belum) jadi seperti Sitta Karina ataupun Raditya Dika yang jago merangkai kata kata jadi suatu karya yang menarik dan berkesan.But one thing, i know that writing and telling stories are one of my passions. Yang lainnya adalah saya mau jadi orang yang bisa merubah hidup orang banyak, seperti presiden atau mungkin sekedar volunteer PBB. Yang jelas, saya ngga mau berakhir jadi mbak-mbak kantoran yang masuk pagi pulang sore dan kerja di depan komputer terus menerus. Saya mau punya karir yang seru.
Tapi punya karir yang seru ngga segampang itu, kan? Kembali lagi ke pertanyaan "Nanti mau makan apa kalo gede?" dan pernyataan yang selalu ada diberikan semua orangtua pada anaknya ttg memilih jurusan "Cari yang gampang buat nyari kerjanya.."
Menjadi idealis berarti ngga bisa realistis, itu kesimpulan saya sejauh ini.
Saya kenal beberapa orang yang rela melepaskan impiannya demi punya prospek kerja yang cerah. Teman saya, dia sebenarnya ingin mengambil teknik penerbangan, namun karena prospek kerja di indonesia di bidang tsb ngga cerah, dia lalu mengambil jurusan yang sama dengan ayahnya dulu.
Saya masih bingung dengan pilihan yang harus saya ambil sebentar lagi.
Happy fasting, cheerio!
bises,
adelia
i hate choosing, why cant i have all that i want? but that's the point of growing up, isnt it? to be able to choose between life's choices. (and i hate growing up, i'd love to be forever 17, young, careless and lively)
Anyway, i'm not gonna whine again, i'm just gonna talk about choosing my next educational path. College.
People always say to follow my heart my passion, and dont take majors that i dont like or just bcos my parents want me to. But, hello? what about being realistic? Seenaknya mengikuti kata hati dan passion mungkin segombal bicara cinta-cintaan sinetron, cinta buta dan gapeduli hal lainnya, dalam kata lain tolol. emangnya bisa bertahan cuma dengan cinta? emangnya mau makan cinta doang pas gede ntar? Sama seperti passion. Mungkin memang ada orang-orang yang mengikuti passionnya dan sukses, dan tentu saja bisa makan dari penghasilannya tersebut. Tapi mayoritas orang mencoba realistis, dan kembali menjadi kapitalis yang hanya memikirkan bagaimana bisa hidup nyaman tanpa kekurangan.
Kalau mau ikutin apa yang sebenernya saya mau, saya bakal milih Jurnalistik atau sastra atau hukum internasional, atau yang paling aneh mungkin bakal jadi artis (obsesi terkenal). I love to write and tell stories, tapi saya bukan (belum) jadi seperti Sitta Karina ataupun Raditya Dika yang jago merangkai kata kata jadi suatu karya yang menarik dan berkesan.But one thing, i know that writing and telling stories are one of my passions. Yang lainnya adalah saya mau jadi orang yang bisa merubah hidup orang banyak, seperti presiden atau mungkin sekedar volunteer PBB. Yang jelas, saya ngga mau berakhir jadi mbak-mbak kantoran yang masuk pagi pulang sore dan kerja di depan komputer terus menerus. Saya mau punya karir yang seru.
Tapi punya karir yang seru ngga segampang itu, kan? Kembali lagi ke pertanyaan "Nanti mau makan apa kalo gede?" dan pernyataan yang selalu ada diberikan semua orangtua pada anaknya ttg memilih jurusan "Cari yang gampang buat nyari kerjanya.."
Menjadi idealis berarti ngga bisa realistis, itu kesimpulan saya sejauh ini.
Saya kenal beberapa orang yang rela melepaskan impiannya demi punya prospek kerja yang cerah. Teman saya, dia sebenarnya ingin mengambil teknik penerbangan, namun karena prospek kerja di indonesia di bidang tsb ngga cerah, dia lalu mengambil jurusan yang sama dengan ayahnya dulu.
Saya masih bingung dengan pilihan yang harus saya ambil sebentar lagi.
Happy fasting, cheerio!
bises,
adelia
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